Christmas

Well, Merry Christmas obviously, though I am a bit late - I was busy all day. But anyhow, I had a good Christmas :3 It was made better 'cause I got to spend a good chunk of the day with my bf ^^ He loves to troll people - so my gift was inside of three different boxes (inside of each other) and all three wrapped up in duct tape and wrapping paper :P And then it was inside of a Brie cheese container (thankfully empty - I abhor that stuff), and then it was just a piece of paper with writing on it, and I had to solve the riddle to figure out my gift xD But going to Wild Chef shall be worth it :3 I used the Brie cheese container as a hat :P I also used a gift his mom made me (an unfinished blanket - she'll finish it eventually :P ) as a hat :P That was enjoyable. And of course the homemade mashed potatoes were very good :3 Especially with freshly grated parmesan cheese - the pasta was good with the cheese too :3 And the cauliflower :3 Cheese is good ^^ 

Tsk

Well, today I read on a friend's fb post that they refuse to kill kids in shooter games. I don't get that. In shooter games, targets are targets... They are there to be killed >.> Children are no different than any others. Or course, I dislike kids, so maybe that has something to do with my confusion. Of course, real life or video game, I don't get how killing kids is any different from killing anyone else. I mean, this shooting was all over the internet that day and days after. But the Bengazhi attack? Not so much, and that was out embassy being attacked, and people died there too. But they weren't kids, nor were they on US soil. So do they not matter as much? People really don't see the big picture, not at all... Yes, kids were shot. Tragic. But so are lives lost every day in other parts of the world and here in the united states. More than that many people undoubtedly died that day in the US, besides that, but no one noticed those deaths 'cause they weren't as big of a deal, as "tragic". It just irks me.

Almost 4 am

I rant and ramble way too much >.> That and long storytelling are why I am even up this late. And the need to chat with people. Damnit! I need to get up around 9 am too >.> Way less sleep than I should get. But I got a good amount of sleep at my bf's house, so it shouldn't be too bad. I hope. Nyeh. Anyhow. I like ranting >.> P'raps too much... Luckily I got all the need to rant and ramble out of my system by chatting with this random person on wajas xD Because I feel like it, I will post our conversation :P

Her: "Hi there. I just got a message today saying you were my Pen-pal. I figured I would start off with saying hi and (if you didn't get a message about me) tell you a little about myself.

I am a hunter. I like to hunt deer and I am interested in hunting other things too. My favorite color is green because it reminds me so much of hunting. I love to read, and I love to write, but only when I choose the genre, I hate writing for school. Same with reading, I only like reading if I like the book, not if its just some stupid story school chose for us to read. I love to play video games. I play anything from Minecraft to Silent Hill. I have 7 pets: 1 cat and 6 dogs, they get along pretty well. In fact two of my dogs just absolutely love the cat. (The cat is sitting in my lap right now trying to get me to pet him lol) I use text, but only sometimes, and not very often. Well, that seems about enough for one message. I can't wait to get a reply."

Me: "I hope you didn't wait too long, I was at my bf's house all day and tomorrow, and I don't bring my iPad there :P Sorry. I personally cannot stand hunting unless it is for food and not sport - I like animals too much :P Cats are my favorite, they are so adorable ^^ I have one cat and that is it - he is laying on my legs watching tv xD I never used to play video games, but I am learning. My favorite series is Legacy of Kain - I am not good enough to play them yet, but my bf plays them :P I am still on the Final Fantasy X stage - easiest video games first, though I also beat another video game - two player, with my bf, completely souped up characters, on easy, but still :P I love reading and writing as well, I don't really care if it is for school or not as long as the book is good. Though I HATED Life of Pi >.> I much prefer fantasy and sci-fi books (and shows, though crime shows are good too; for movies I like action). Have you ever read any books by Tad Williams? He's my favorite author :3 I also like food. Very much so :P "

Her: " LOVE food as well :). I haven't every read a book by Tom Williams, but my favorite author is James Patterson. If you have a good imagination, a very good video game to play is Minecraft. If you every get the game for an Xbox 360 or so I'd love to play it with you. I normally don't watch Tv, except for one Tv show called The Walking Dead. "

Me: "James Patterson is good :3 I do not like Minecraft >.> A lot of my friends play it - I cannot stand the perspective or the blockiness or anything - it gives me a headache. As I said, I never used to play video games - my house has no video game systems at all >.> My friends play Minecraft on their iPads - I have an iPad, but again, don't like Minecraft. Oddly enough, as I love creating things :P We have a tv instead, and so record tons of shows. I do not like zombie movies or shows, or anything horror for that matter, but some funny zombie movies are okay. Which is odd as I love the shows like Supernatural, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Doctor Who, and other such shows xD But all have humor - I love humor. "

Her: "Have you ever heard of Jeff Dunham??"

Me: "YES! He is hilarious! xD Akhmed is my favorite :3 Though José Jalepeño on a Stick is great too xD"

Her: "I have to say Peanut or Akhmed are my favorites. I saw Jeff Live once!"

Me: "xD Lucky :P 

Peanut creeps me out p.p"

Her: "Ha!

So umm.. hopefully you don't mind me asking this but how are you?"

Me: "Why would I mind? o.0 I am perfectly fine :3 Quite well, actually ^^ My bf can cook, as can his mom, so I am actually getting good bacon finally xD My family cannot cook worth pretty much anything, especially not bacon, which is sad as I love bacon p.p But we can cook zucchini! Better than them even in my opinion :3 Well, I don't really like the zucchini my bf and his mom make - too squishy and waaay too much butter. My family is not much on condiments like that - and I so even less than my parents :P I prefer putting cheese on everything xD I love cheese, especially good quality cheese :3 And baklava. And I am listening to good music, that always makes me happy ^^ And how are you?"

Her: "Been GREAT today, although last night wasn't very good :/ While on the subject of food.... I love almost any food there is out there. Deer meat, Steak, Lobster, Shrimp, Cherries, Lamb, Squash, Broccoli, Snail. Pretty muchly anything as long as its edible and not WAY overly spicy. "

Me: "Why wasn't it very good? D:

Same here! Well, in moderation :P And preferrably cooked how I like it. Though I am not much on meats as so many are not cooked how I like it. Ironically I like sushi and sashimi (some, anyway, especially white tuna sashimi!) :P Veal is pretty good. My bf loves steak and shrimp, though I am not overly fond of them. He also likes sushi, but so do I so yeah :P Lobster is okay, though I prefer crab. Oysters are good :3 I personally am more of a starch person - I love noodles, rice, good quality breads, good pastries, and other such ones the best :P Though sour foods are good too, like kumquats and lemons. And Mexican food! Especially burritos and other such foods, and especially for breakfast :3 Mexican food for breakfast is better than normal food for breakfast :3 And I like crab rangoons a lot. Have you ever been to DC? Mom and I vistited there this summer, and all of the food was really good p.p Especially the Italian and the French places we went to - our favorite foods are Italian and French, so that makes sense xD In case you couldn't tell, I ramble a lot >.> Anyhow. I haven't tried snail, shark, squid, octopus, snake, or aligator, though I want to try all of them :P"

Her: "Well.... I guess you could say I almost lost someone I love.

Also, I have indeed noticed that you do, but its doesn't bother me any, in fact, I like it because I don't have to feel like Im sending random messages for a conversation. I have tried all of those that you want to try except snake, and I will be trying it as soon as I get the chance lol. I love to try foods."

Me: "How so? D:

Lucky >.> Where I live, we don't really have anywhere with cuisine like that, suski and sashami are the most exotic we have >.> Mostly it is fast food, Mxiacam, burger joints, and some other food places, some Italian, and some Chinese places. We don't have an extensive variety. Plus, our family doesn't exactly have enough for such things anyway :P I only ever go for sushi with my bf when we both have at least $20 >.> Plus, we don't have cars (or licenses technically - I mean, I am 18 and only have a permit >.> I have driving so much p.p And my bf of 22 doesn't have a car to practice driving with - my family has an suv, a buick, and a jeep. The buick is really old, the suv we got new in 2004, and the jeep is used. We have had a lot of different cars - multiple of them Mustangs. Dad likes cars too much - we don't need them! And we don't need extra monitors or laptops! Why doesn't he, I dunno, SAVE the money? And that money could go to my bf for things like bills and food - we have a nice house, whereas he lives in an apartment with his mother and they are behind on bills plus medical expenses, and thus they don't have very much food, spending their combined momey from work mostly on bills.) so we used to bike everywhere - but since I got into an accident way back in July on my bike and broke my ankle, we have been walking everywhere. I don't mind so much, it is fun to just take walks and talk ^^ I love the outdoors, especially in the woods or a meadow with plenty of different mosses and white pine trees and birches and mushrooms ^^ Anyhow, since we walk everywhere, and the place we get sushi os expensive AND across the highway (since my accident I have been fairly scared of crossing roads, especially ones with so many lanes), we don't go often. Oh well. Snake is the one I want most to try - I have heard it is good ^^ The problem is, I like snakes p.p They are adorable! And so lovely! I wish I had a boa constrictor... They are gorgeous, and my grandma's friend has two. My friend Grace has a baby corn snake, his name is Squidgy and he is adorable!! Their two cats currently think of it as prey though - it will be interesting to see their reaction when he grows up xD I still remember at fifth grade camp when we were on a scabenger hunt, and I saw a snake and the rest of the cabin (all girls, obviously, though the guys did the same) ran away to the path, screaming xD I just looked at it and stepped closer. I wanted to catch it but it was too fast - of course, as I had no idea if it was venomous or not at the time that was probably good xD Though it was a blue racer - nonvenomous (there is actually only one vemonous snake in my area - the Massasauga Rattlesnake. I want to meet one~ ) so I was fine, but that explained the speed of it :P I never saw a blue racer again though. I love being a tree for the snakes :P Squidgy really liked my watch xD He is so little! Not even a foot long! But, just like cats, I like all sizes :3 They are adorable. I take way too many pics of my cat xD Well, cats in general o.0 I love taking pictures of things :3 But at least a quarter of the pics on my computer and iPad are of my cat xD Poor him. He doesn't like me - or anyone but mom - much :P Him and I fight a lot, and I get a lot of battle scars xD I have so many permenant scars from my cat - and he doesn't even have front claws, only back and teeth xD He is 13 years old now, we got him in Spring of 1999 when I was only five :3 I wouldn't move into this house until my parents got me a cat, so I got a cat xD Before then we moved apartments a lot, but we have had this old house since then :3 And my cat :3 So adorable~ I have been obsessed with cats pretty much my entire life xD It's what got me into dawing. And the Warriors book series by Erin Hunter - I was obsessed with them for the longest time, that is why I started roleplaying too. And I used to act like I was a cat all the time - still do >.> I can hiss and growl pretty well, and mew like an actual cat :3 Being surrounded with cats my entire life - my dad's parents have always had cats, my mom's parens had a cat and a dog, my cousins have seven cats, and a lot of my friends have cats, and of course we have a cat - I was able to learn quite well :3 Especially the growling and hissing, as one of my dad's parents' cats hisses and growls a lot :P His name is Howie, and he is not very nice xD Well, he is just scared really. His previous owners didn't treat him well. He, along with my cat, is becoming nicer though. "

And now I am going to sleep xD Yeah. So that is the end of the conversation for now that you almost certainly didn't even read anyhow :P But yeah, as you can see I ramble a lot >.> And that is my excuse for being up so late >.> Yep.

Food

Food is good. Just thought I'd get that out there. I don't understand how anyone could just forget to eat o.0 I mean, yeah delaying eating I can get 'cause you are doing something and don't want to get up off of your lazy arse to get food, but forgetting? Or not eating because you are "too fat" or whatever? No. Just no. If you actually /are/ at an unhealthy weight, I'm all for you eating healthier and exercising to lose weight, but NOT just not eating, because that makes absolutely no sense and is unhealthy. I, personally, like food a lot, especially the richer tastes such as cheese, cheesecake, shortbread, white tuna sashimi, sparkling juices, pot roast, and freshly mashed potatoes ^^ They are just so delectable :D Anyhow, yeah. So food is good :P I have no idea why I wrote this, I just started writing and this is what my exhausted brain came up with :P Why are you still reading this? Shoo, shoo, you have better things to do :P

Lost

I feel lost... My mind in unsure of whom I should care about, though my heart has made its decisions... My soul is in even worse turmoil, considering what I believe, and my emotions are confused, this music is not helping but I cannot not listen to music, I have to listen to it, it keeps me from going insane inside my head... 

Heh... Heh... Heh...

Is it bad that I just spent over an hour at this time of night (12-1) drawing my bf in different forms? :P The thing I am drawing them on on my iPad is very enjoyable to use :3 Each one is just a quick speedpaint/speedsketch thing :P I made what, five? Six? Something like that xD Technically, only I think three are of him (cat, German Shepherd, and human-with-a-dragon-tail) and the other three are just drawing FOR him, these have words - yes, it was six drawing I think, 'cause two were with lyrics from songs and the other wasn't. That was fun :3 But now my right wrist hurts >.> I ought to sleep... I shall... I am not obsessed at all.... Heh.... (Yes, not even a little bit... Nope, definitely a lot >.> :P ) I shaded each one of course, I love shading :D Even if it is only a little, though all of these have plenty of shading, and I didn't do half-bad! :D That is a good thing, i used a reference for the German Shepherd one, but not the others. I suck at proportions though >.> Oh hey look, 5% battery remaining, I could have sworn I had over 20% when I started >.> Ah well :P 

Netflix

I used to doubt the awesomeness of Netflix, but now I have succumbed to its amazingness :P We can watch tons of amazing shows on it, which is very useful :3 Also, food is good. Red Robin is much better than expected as well, especially the chili. And the soups :3 The chicken sandwich is pretty good too. And sushi, and sashimi, and fresh homemade guacamole, and bean dip... Oh, and sparkling red grape juice! Amazing stuff. As well as my bf, he is utterly amazing :3 All of my friends are, really. They are the best people in the world; I am very lucky to have met these wonderful people ^^ I have gained many new interests from them; board games, sushi, Red Robin, the Game Store, people, video games, and so many other things I did not previously like. They have broadened my world, and that is a very good thing. Most people are not awesome, but these people are :D And for some reason, I like graveyards, they are so lovely~ All of the different gravestones, and names... So very interesting. (I don't have a macabre interest in anything, really... :P True, more like almost everything >.> ) They are just so curious, y'know? Probably part of why I am so interested in my bf; he has a very prevalent dark side :3 Me gusta.